Am i only blacksmith of my life :) ?

I don't have to say much at this moment. And writting about prsonal things would be utter nonsense. But who cares?! That's right - nobody :) ! So anyway let me complain a little bit to you, that tomorrow should be my one of the major day. But at this time at least i dont feel any joy about that.. Maybe tomorrow i will have slightly different opinion. Who knows. That depends on me only.. So here i'm like a blacksmith (like that agent (smith) from matrix?) of my life. Interesting..